Good morning I am on my phone I’ve been up since bout 6:03 am not feeling so hot I honestly feel like I’ve been hit over the head with a baseball bat without the headache if that’s possible. Last night I didn’t end up going to bed till 1:50ish am?! What did I decide to clean because of my tremors yesterday I didn’t get to it. My daughter fell asleep around 10 ish pm she was having a hard time falling asleep. She went to a roller skating place and she said mom I fell on my bum and now back and bum hurts really badly! She’s been having this pain since then I’m trying to see if it will go away. I remember I use to write a lot during my younger days and remember loosing a ton of my journals when I traveled from Cali to Texas. I wish I never lost them honestly.Goodness I don’t like using my phone, I guess I’m that old when it comes to writing. Oh no here comes the fog my brain is starting to shut down once again episode here I come update later. had a couple episodes today once in the morning and sometime in the afternoon I can’t remember what time. I totally just didn’t socialize with anyone today. I was really in my feelings and feeling sick and just didn’t want to deal. I tried to be positive but these tremors would be the life of me.I am clearly drawing a blank right now because I have no words it will come to me promise maybe. I didn’t get mad about much of anything today I believe. I was pretty chill besides feeling sick. LOL Oh I started a challenge with my daughter today maybe she will get the concept of responsibility. For every chore she gets a $1, for every time she gets in trouble its minus a $1. At the end of the week if she has anything left she can use it for something she wants. There was another part of it but I can’t exactly remember right now. So when I was younger my real mother made this statue out of coral and seashells and since that day I always wanted to recreate it. But well I have seashells but no coral I am quite aways ways from the island for that. Oh my goodness this heartburn. Today I have fruit taco bell and juice lol not enough food to keep my okay but I will be okay. I believe. Sorry I had to fight through a fog right there day dreams are something I do a lot now more than ever.Why did I promise my daughter she will get sushi tomorrow I guess its homemade for us. I have jackets that I need to put up. Oh gosh do you ever wish that you can push a reset on life? Like not with the people in your life but the things you do and choices you make? Like why did I get this big giant okay its not giant but for me it is because I am short lol./ This what is it called ohhhh an easel for kids. Chalk board on ones side and white board on the other. Like whyyy its taking up space more of I need a bigger space. It is a perfect thing that my daughter needs so she can go on and do things in the world. Okay so I worked out today and yesterday and blank I stopped again because I completely got confused. Okay guys I am just gonna end it with that I am totally scattered and I paused for like 30 mins or less or so trying to gather thoughts and I couldn’t do it. Shutting down.Hopefully you all had a better day than me.Always, Bina |
